Random banter

This thing we are going through. I see myself and those around me facing different realities and truths. We are all unique , we all have our own story to tell. Im coming to realize that to be a better person you have to stop trying so hard. Connections and understanding are key to relationships of any kind. the ego or the self is something we need to reconcile with but in the right way to better our connections, do not feed it, let it be free on its own and grow with the company of others. DESIRE is also one to refine, let desire turn into a drive to progress, to elevate with out hindering or harming others. I’m still working on this two, but with the focus of these underlying themes comes a broader understanding of all the other trials I come across.

So my 6 year old nephew walks in all happy and junk and gives me a big ole hug, looks at me with those huge adorable eyes and asks where (insert ex-girlfriends name here) is. Soo many thoughts and ill formed excuses rush through my mind as I try to figuer out the best and easiest way to explain her absence, the silence of my thoughts are awoken when he says he misses her.

Right there at that moment my mind snaps and a broken heart utters

“Andres, I miss her too, but (insert girlfriends name here) said some really mean things to me, and I said some back to her too. She really hurt my feelings and that’s why she’s not coming back. I’m sorry”
A hug and a I love you was consolation from a innocent young boy, and it reminded me that sometimes the love of a family is all you need to move on.

Blehhhhh

I’d be floating and all my cares disappeared. All it takes is a smile or a flick of your hair to be mesmerized. A walk to a park or even just the corner store. It didn’t matter cause when I feel this way everywhere is an adventure.

Its scary not knowing if you’ll ever get that feeling back again. Its been a while so far and I guess over that time I’ve gotten use to not being in love. I do miss it and sometimes wonder when I’ll experience that again.
Maybe I won’t, maybe my time has passed

I love this way cause I got it as a kid

we do what we do and we do what we live

i love this way cause i got it as a kid

with so much to give from it i never hid

the love that i wrote on the mirror it got smeared

my friends say it was a change for the better

but i say girl you changed my forever

relationships they can be as strange as the weather…